Friday, July 27, 2007

Walking on the beach - Raw in the real world


I just set my desktop background to this image.. I am dreaming of walking on sand soon.

I have so much on my mind it's hard to think of what to write..but here I am. I usually have some vague idea. Today -nothing... so I'll ramble. I am feeling a bit bad.. I just made a conventional cake, in the oven, for my son, Nicholas, who is turning 16 today. My kids all love cake, and cookies and just about everything else that average kids on a Standard American Diet like. It makes me kind of sad, understandably. I raised them on this stuff ..but now I know what it is doing to them.. and I have apologized but what more can I do? ..& Even if I didn't make him a cake, there would be one bought.. which I feel would be worse. Sometimes we have to just follow our heart to make the right decisions.

I am having issues in this manner at work also. I think I need to go meditate. sigh.

I am flying out early tomorrow morning.. lots of last minute things to do around here. I haven't packed or really thought of that yet. This is my first trip away by myself without my kids or husband in 18 years!! (first real trip that is, I had a couple over-nighters away) we'll have been married 18 years on Aug 5th. wow!! There is a big family reunion on that day also.. the day after I get back.

Oh, & get this. I am missing going to David Wolfe's birthday party cause I will be away.. Oh well, next year.. Mi-san said she'll take pics.

This is a lot more personal than I usually get. I am going to go make juice now.. just enough time.. maybe time to wrap presents ( or I'll do it quick when I get home. )
We got Nick a Wii, extra controller w/ another game and the new Harry Potter book. - my kids don't read my blog. ; )

Sometimes it's strange I feel like I waver back & forth in & out of the real world.. & thats depending on what side you call the real world. I should say normal, convention life vs earthy, raw, flowing, life.. its almost like going in between a solid form and a translucent state. The raw me almost feels like flying.. and I am still in this state when dealing in the normal world.. but there just is a difference interacting with different presences. It's fun.. but sometimes kind of sad.

I am so excited for my trip tomorrow. I am not even sure when I am leaving.. bbwhen I get a chance. I am planning on taking my laptop. : )
Have a wonder-ful day!!! x

4 comments:

Connie said...

My daughter's 16th b'day party is Sunday and the cake thing has been a big big deal! It is still not settled. I usually make a raw cake, but this time she wants something different. I think I am going to order one. I can't bake one 'cuz I gave my oven away! LoL!

Sometimes we just have to go with their flow. I try to remember that the whole day is for the purpose of a magical memory for her and that I will not have her with me much longer. I just appreciate the fact that she still wants to spend her birthday with me! LoL! I am not going to let the food thing cause any friction. We will be back to normal on Monday!

Enjoy your wonder~full family and have fun on your trip!

Big Hugs!
Connie

Anonymous said...

You sound like you need a vacation ! We will walk on the beach..... I promise..... I practiced yesterday. It will be the best vacation ever !

Love, Mum

Paul said...

Visit

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JP0oSaUQn5E&eurl=http%3A%2F%2Fallchannels%2Eblogspot%2Ecom%2F

The Cake! " If ya know what I mean."

I found this at the excellent blog Alive On All Channels.

Go in Beauty, as the Navajo say.

Pablo

Keiko Ti said...

Oh, wow, Connie.. I wish I could give my oven away! Cool!!! The other members of my family just wouldn't go for it.. that's life, but one day!
& we have kids the same age! nice. I like Leo's ..have 2 of them, (Kaiya turns 15 in Aug)..one thing about Leo kids, you usually don't have to worry about them, they will take care of themselves.
Have a great weekend with your daughter!

Hi Mom! There's a party going on here.. bunch of kids sleeping over. I'm tired & off to bed. Haven't even packed yet, lol not sure whats coming with me, but at least I will make it. & yes, we will have lots of fun! xox, cusoon!

Pablo, is God the cake??
kind of interesting idea.. but he's really down. & the part where he says art and drugs won't take you there.. I was thinking about that.. I have thought about this before how lots of artist types and previous drug users get into Raw.. not only, but it was just an observation I had made before.. I think 1 these people think outside the box, are experimental and willing to try something new.. open minded, free- thinking .. and 2 like to feel sensations, explore, get blissful and transcendent, y'know? but thats a bit of an aside.. what I was going to say is that art & drugs may not take you there.. but I really think raw foods can. They can definitely get you going in the right direction!

Thanks for the thoughts.
Peace out, party on, go in beauty..
Beautiful!
Love you all lots!